I Would Like To Drink StarLight – Jamie, 42

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Jamie Renee Lashbrook is a Wisdom Keeper of the Feminine ways. She is a Mayan Abdominal clinical visceral and breath work therapist who is trauma and story aware. She works through a Shamanic lens so the gift in each person is brought to Life through the journey into the body and soul. 

There is power in story telling. There is power in community. There is power in sharing. The more we know about one another; the more we understand; the more powerful we become.

We invite all of the KuelWomen out there to share their stories with us.

This is Jamie’s:

KUEL LIFE: What are you pursuing now, after 40, that surprises you or might appear to others as if it’s come out of left field?
JAMIE: I live a life where all things come out of left field. I chose the path that few dare to walk. What I pursue right now is also what is pursuing me. How can I carve space daily for what haunts and hunts and pushes desire through my bones?

KUEL LIFE: What’s a typical day like for you?
JAMIE: I wake and try to get my bare feet onto the Earth before anything. I want to tune in before I invite conventions into my day that tune out a part of me in order to “achieve” a thing. I may write. I may see a client or 3. I may get stuck in a loop and forget who I am- again- to remember again. Always, I praise this journey

KUEL LIFE: With what do you struggle?
JAMIE: Myself. My story creating more story.
Wondering how I monetize and materialize something so sacred. I struggle with addiction to my own self discovery- and also real addiction. I struggle with my chemistry and how I’m wired towards darkness. I struggle with carrying more light than most and the dichotomy of extremes that rip me in two. Balance. Grounding. Bringing voice to the miracles I see and live daily. How to honor the great gift and bring Her kiss to the cold and turned away cheeks of the lost child in us all. I struggle with how simple it is and how we got here! And my great gift of a heart that sees the medicine in the wounding.

KUEL LIFE: How do you motivate yourself and stay motivated?
JAMIE: Love. Well- that’s a lie. I would like to say that love just moves me effortlessly in discipling myself.
Honesty brings me to share that I tend to set up subconscious scenarios where I get myself backed into a corner- where I have to ignite survival and therefore action. It’s an inherited collective and ancestral story of punishment- sin- receiving that I am re-mything.

KUEL LIFE: What advice would you give fellow women about aging?
JAMIE: It’s never too late. It’s a necessary cliche that holds so much wisdom.  

Oh- and live in diverse communities with young women. They need your wisdom. You’ve been preparing your whole life for this. Elderhood is the one most vital lost virtue of our society and you have more worth to Her and us now than ever before.

KUEL LIFE: What does vulnerability mean to you? What has the ability to make you vulnerable?
JAMIE: Honesty. Speaking truth from my heart with full willingness to be reflected and even more willingness to learn. Love makes me vulnerable. Vulnerability makes me safe. Love is safety.

KUEL LIFE: What are three events that helped to shape your life?
JAMIE: Loss- more loss- and another loss.

Oh- my birth. And a recent vision quest – a rebirth. And death.

KUEL LIFE: Who influenced you the most in life and why?
JAMIE: My mother. I lost her young. She’s still alive but I lost her. She suffers. She shines. I can’t finish this. It’s my life’s work- my mother.
I will tell the story. But not now. The lump in my throat – a white hot scream- shattered heart- awakening dreams- wounds that attract medicine. Too much for here right now.
And – she is the wisest one. I chose her to hold me which means I knew in that choosing that she held the wisdom I need and that can never change. So I now re-myth the story of a Mother wounded and in pain to One of the greatest love story ever told.

KUEL LIFE: What is the best advice you’ve been given from another woman?
JAMIE: “Get on that plane. Go do what we should have all had the courage to do”. This from my grandmother as she lay in emergency – in pain- fighting for her life- in the hospital the day I was to fly out to a center in Mexico to get help and do my work. One of the hardest choices of my life.

KUEL LIFE: What woman inspires you and why?
JAMIE: Clarissa Pinkola Estes. She is humble and exalted at the same time- A true voice of the Goddess.

KUEL LIFE: Are you grown-up?
JAMIE: I think we need to ask- “am I grown into?”

KUEL LIFE: What do you do for self-care?
JAMIE: Too much and not enough. I discern between is it self care or me trying to fix a thing and distract myself? I know gentleness is a constant practice of self love and care.  I’m my own worst critic and greatest ally.  

KUEL LIFE: And last but definitely NOT least: What are the top three things on your bucket list?
JAMIE: I don’t have a list. Unpacking my life’s gift is the path that will lead me to the extraordinary experiences beyond anything I could dream or plan. I would like to drink starlight. Have a baby (did I just admit that?)

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