Guest Blogger: Margeaux House, ThisCurvyWorld
The interior design industry has been my world for over 20 years. I have worked long and hard to build a business that I could be proud of, and a salary that would afford me a lifestyle where I can pay the bills and keep myself in Gucci bags. But, as I get closer to 50 I have been thinking more and more about what the next 20 years of my life will look like. Do I want to stay in the hustle of sales? Do I want to continue to live in NYC? Why couldn’t my husband and I sell the house and live off the land somewhere on a tiny little island? Often, we get stuck in the daily routine of our lives that it seems impossible or overwhelming to think that we could be living differently. It’s also been ingrained in my generation (Gen X) by society that it’s not until you retire, that you are “allowed” to completely live for you.
So, when I was asked by the owner of the studio where I practice yoga if I had ever thought about teaching; my first thought was “I don’t have time for that, and I certainly can’t leave my job and start all over”. My second thought was; “Yoga teachers don’t make any money”. My third thought was; “Wait, Yoga really has changed my life maybe I should be sharing this gift with others”.
After struggling with my weight my entire life, I started practicing yoga at the start of 2017. Over the course of the year the practice helped me to release 120 lbs of physical and emotional weight. I saw a difference in everything in my life. I had more patience. I was kinder to myself and others. I was more compassionate. I was more grateful. And, I was taking better care of my health.All of this prompted me to launch my lifestyle blogthiscurvyworld in the Fall of that same year.
I had no idea what I was doing when I started, but I knew I wanted to share my personal journey with others and talk about what it looks like to be a size 12/14 and be healthy and fit. Over the course of 2018, I realized how much I love being able to use more of my creative side. Creating the website and the feel of my social media; setting up the photography for everything; and writing content has brought me joy. It has been a lot of work, on top of my very demanding career, but it has been extremely fulfilling.
What has given me the most joy is the emails and direct messages that I have gotten from so many people letting me know that my journey is inspiring them to love themselves more, take care of their health, and live their best life now!None of this would have happened had I not found yoga when I started on my wellness journey in 2017.
Circling back to my initial thought of “Yoga teachers make no money”;I started to think…why do I need to limit myself to thinking that I would just have to teach at other studios? Why can’t I combine my knowledge of design with my passion for connecting with people and create my own beautiful studio? I started to visualize this kind of life for myself and seriously liked what I was seeing. I decided the right thing for me to do was to deepen my yoga practice by getting certified to teach.
The universe is certainly speaking to me because the theme of my teacher training is called “Intuition”.My intuition is telling me that I am on the right path, and that I just need to make space for this experience. I recently posted this quote on social media “Make space for the inevitable arrival of what you want”.Making space for what we want or need in our lives is the hardest part of achieving our goals and desires. There is always some reason why we don’t have enough time to focus on the pursuit of what we want; yet we can always seem to show up for our children, significant other, job, and our friends. Somewhere along the way society deemed it selfish to show up for yourself but in actuality you cannot fully show up for others, without showing up for yourself first.
These next four months I will be juggling quite a bit. Between a demanding career and 200hrs of intense training; I have had to think a lot about what I will need to do to make space for this experience. I decided that I will need to hibernate, a little bit, this Winter which means less writing for my blog, less social media, and less time with friends, family, and my husband.
This is, however, a finite amount of time. Come Spring I will be certified and ready to lead; but, right now this is what I need to do for me. Whether it is a new love; change of career; wellness goals, or whatever else you desire; “make the space” to allow it to enter your life. If you are honest with yourself and take some time to think; you will know what you need to do to make room for the inevitable arrival of what you want.